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RE: what is schizophrenia to me ?

in #psychology7 years ago

Hi Kimzilla and thanks for the question ! Very cool and grounded question: The way that I today view any of my personalities is very static, very "naked". Like it is a polarity construct that I do my best to keep a neutral/balanced relationship to. That way avoid go into a polar of self. So that my focus is on self honesty/self/physical awareness and not lost on minds polarity games. So that I can see and recon that the personalities and polarity constructs are "there" - but more like static and non functional (museum of my blueprint) - like they don't possess me like they used to. This from having walked a lengthy process of self forgiveness and self change with the desteni i process. You can say that I recon myself born a schizophrenic and that this is a form of autism that i carry in this life, at the same time I have managed (!!) to hack into my mind, remove, and delete so much of my minds old programs (and personalities) that I am more in my own : being and physical. To see that my being is more in charge and that my mind in is more transformed into tools to reverse of the old self/old programming. This reversing happens as I am able to give more of my drive to my beeingness - which is a awesome discovery that I am exploring. My mind turns into a cave of wonders, and my being steps forth. So I still recon that I carry schizophrenia, but not that present, not that active, like it is stored in my (old) minds programs that I have more or less left and can more view as something that don't bother me that much. Still there are times that I would need to slow down because I go into a spin/reaction/possession. This would go on very delicately and sneaky, (schizophrenia) until I can detect it and stop it from messing up my reality with for instance a polarity/personality. But this happens lesser and lesser as I practice to bring forth my being and - to alter/reverse my mind's programs. Still : I see that I can live something similar to personalities, but now it is more like water/currency/fluids and more easy for me to direct.