If you've been assigned to read this; its not too late to do the right thing and maybe sleep well at night again. Look at Edward Snowden.
You didn't think you were the bad guy; you just wanted to make your country safe. Nobody is the monster in his own story.
Its becoming inescapably obvious now, though.
People trying to make their own country safe have made the entire world unsafe.
Look up Chad and Nadia Elwartowski. They just wanted to be left alone. Haven't you always said, "If you don't love it, leave"? They left. They want right out to sea; and the Thai Navy tried to murder them for it. It doesn't have to be this way. You're a good person; act like it.