This is a verse/poetry that I wrote a few days ago. Let me know what you think.

"Suicide Letter"

Kill me for my benefit, love. Don’t ever mention it
Irresistible mutagenesis - my depression is
The truth is evident, never get beyond it
Everyday a bomb hits, a military conflict
Special Ops convict stuck inside a prison cell
Fighting with my inner self, give em hell
Might as well…

The picture painted is vivid, but can I live it?
When it’s time for forgiveness, I pivot, I can’t revisit
Killing all who solicit, this sickness it isn’t witnessed
Like liquid it sits diminished, until you throw yourself in it

Seconds shift into minutes, minutes twist to days
Gun is aimed, bang bang... I instantly feel no pain
Can not live with the strain of what my life has remained
Is my family ashamed? How will my death be explained?

Momma's love is proclaimed, I’m lowered into my grave
So much I could say… God, just take me away