Love And War

You're going to wake up one morning wanting something different,
listen, I know I wasn't perfect, but I loved you, and I did my best to show it.
All these other guys only want one thing,
I wanted a ring for your finger to make you my queen.
Baby I'd still do anything, just to show you I care,
but they way you play with my heart the game is unfair.
And I've said so many prayers wishing you were in my arms,
but I still wake up alone to the sound of my alarm.
Lay in bed awake, hours passing me by, thinking about the past, and asking myself why.
Why all this shit happened, why you're no longer here,
how you didn't notice the love I had for you, and how I could have made it more clear.
But damn, I'm only one man, and I'm doing the best that I can,
and if I'm just not enough for you, then I'm not going to try to convince you that I am.
Because I've said all I can say, and I've done all I can do,
until you give me a chance again, then I'll be able to prove that every word I said to you was true. But honestly, I'm starting to wonder if you even deserve me.
Are you even worth my time after all this pain and suffering?
Should I just move on to something new, so I'm not always feeling used,
and abused, you took my heart, beat it up and left it with a bruise,
I'm not amused by everything that you've done.
This shit has been real, but its not been real fun.
So many tears stained my pillow case, felt like blood was rushing down my face,
and just in case you don't remember, we both agreed on forever,
and now I'm stuck writing this stupid ass letter hoping it will make things better.
But probably not, knowing you it'll just piss you off, and get you hot,
and you'll get upset, tell me to leave you alone without having regrets, this is as good as it gets!
Baby I'm right here, and I always have been.
Since the first time you left me, now were at it again.
They say the 3rd time's the charm, well I'm hoping I get that chance,
so this time I can show you a real romance, but I'm not trying to go fast,
we should take things slow, get to know each other better, so I can keep you close, and never let you go, because without you in my life babe, well shit I just don't know.
These sleepless nights, and constant memories,
the laughs, and the way your beautiful eyes looked at me.
Your smile, your smell, it was hard for me to tell,
with all the love I have for you, I didn't realize that I fell.
I cant think of any other way to explain how you are constantly on my mind,
literally all the time, it's getting hard for me to find some peace inside my head,
and the reason I have insomnia is because you used to lay in this bed,
right by my side, and now this empty space is filled with lies.
And I don't want to hide my emotions, I'm tired of the games,
and I'll do what I can to fix what we had, with the little pieces of love that still remain.
But if you're not willing, there's nothing I can do, at least after this you will finally know the truth.
I love you, and I hope you love me too.