The Feeling Is Still The Same

My lips curved into a smile
As I realized, "It's been a while."
My heart jumped and it flew
Well, this isn't something new

A certain feeling I could get
From the very day that I met
You're still my sunshine in the rain
The entity that could ease my pain

For years, you were always there
You're someone I just can't compare
Your smile brightens my lonely night
Your laughter takes me to a certain height

I still remember those days in the past
I've written a lot; I knew it'd last
And guess what? I still do it now
Writing my feelings for you somehow

You don't know me, of that I'm aware
But my heart just doesn't seem to care
As long as you bring a smile in my heart
There's no way I'd keep myself apart


@tegoshei

Ahh~ certainly miss this feeling. Though it's not new, but I'm just so happy these days. Perhaps I've told you in the past about my favorite Japanese idol group which is NEWS as well as the meaning of my username, so for those who didn't know I'd say it again.

NEWS is a Japanese idol group which originally was composed of 9 people but they lost members along the way for various reasons. Now, they're a group of four. One of them is the reason for my username. His name is Tegoshi Yuya, while I'm Sheila. I combined Tego from his family name, and Shei from my name. Thus, @tegoshei.

I have been in love with him for almost 10 years now. Most of the poems I wrote in the past were about him. Well, it might be ridiculous for some people. I am aware that my existence doesn't matter to him, but his existence matters to me and to a lot of other people. Personally, he and his group saved me from depression years back. That's perhaps the reason why their group has become an essential part of my life, especially him. This is a feeling a fellow fangirl could empathize.

Their group has helped me widen my connection to the world, too. I got to communicate with fangirls in the Philippines as well as in other countries, some of them I still keep in touch with up to this date. It's lovely to see my fellow fangirls getting married and having a family of their own, yet they continue to love NEWS. I suppose what my Fudanshi-senpai said is entirely true, "Once a fangirl, always a fangirl."

Until here..
Thanks a lot for dropping by!
それではまた～
Love lots, @tegoshei