My Mistake; My fault

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I never envisaged a day like this would be again
I hadn't a glimpse at the print of a betrayer's foot
When I thought I was strong came the biggest hit
I'm so weakened, broken and shattered
I'm crumbled and worn out by my deepest pain
All borne out of my avoidable mistake

You promised to be my solace even when I was doubtful
You promised to make up for the loses and jilts
You promised to loosen off the myths I had
You told me everything would be just fine
Rather you signed me up for the deepest shit

Oh! How could I have known it was a trap
How could I have known I was up for a doom
When the sweetest words were full of deception
I should have known you were never near honesty
I take the blame for all my losses and pain

I'm saddled with much terror than I took a risk
It was worth taken for my quest for love
Forgetting to build my fence around so high
Now causing a bizzare feelings
This fragile heart has been infiltrated

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My mistakes hurts and pierces through like an arrow
Getting me crazy and I'm losing my sanity
What I dread the most is right here with me
I should have known when it came knocking
But refused to heed to the soothing voice

What can I make of this
How do I help my darkest moment
Who will let the cat outta the bag
Where can I get the pain relief
And When would that be

I hope I have learned my lesson?

To be continued......