a piece of my trip episode

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February historic day for me
a day full of sadness, a sense of emotion wrapped in wounds
when my friends are busy opening the lecture notes
but I am busy with work that I have not yet got
when my friends are engrossed in the pen
but I dance under the ink of tears
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In my heart say?
this month I will not go to college until next year
I do not have the money to pay tuition
I will not ask my parents
I often make them difficult, lousy, teary
My mother got sick this month
the pain he suffered was various
ranging from mild to severe heartbreaking
even the doctor said my mother had to be operated on
I do not have the heart of my mother
how could i ask her
while he held back the tears of grief
My father was a mere entrepreneur
with a small salary
not to mention he had to bear my sister's school
which until now has not always get a diploma
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In my heart say?
let me toil
work from morning to dusk
despite having to bleed blood, sweat,
tears in my eyes I do not care
how ever I should rise up
looking for a dream for the sake of an ideal
my shoulders felt heavy like carrying a mountain-high load
My eyes began to dizzy
my joint muscles felt limp not contained
my head feels like dizzy like a stone chunk
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Missed in my heart?
how hard it is to find halal and barokah jobs
from one place I've joled
corner to corner I've been exploring
but good fortune has not been self-sustaining
No, no !
I should not despair of His mercy
because he is virtuous, great handful of his servants
He can not allow His servant to whine in His door
but he will soon grant it all

It's true ....
life is like wading through the world's oceans
wide stretches
I am strong and strong
as rocky as the ocean
still survive despite being hit by the waves,
in a violent storm
I can not be kicked
I must advance to be a winner
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Seconds passed, days changed
Alhamdulillah, Allah 'Azza Wajalla listened to my prayer
I was accepted as a private employee in the library
the school's name is MTs Guppi
the school is simple but timeless by religious atmosphere
Principal wise
The teachers are authoritative nan kebakhahul karimah
Unpretentious employees
and friendly students
increasingly making me feel at home there

In this school I study
learn to be patient
though not easy
I was educated to put on a cheerful face
a sincere smile embedded and an attitude far from jealousy
when serving students who borrow books
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Here I study
learn about the meaning of a discipline
how to wake up early, early in school
and go home must be faithful until the students come home from school
Here I learn from experience
experiences that I could not miss
always dancing in my eyeballs
refracting the colorful life of the world
red, yellow, blue
it was an amazing experience

I learned from him
friends who have never lied to me
always accompany me on the sidelines of my activity routine
touching it makes smooth fingers
familiar with him beautify the character
is my friend when I am lonely
is a teacher when I am confused
is the lover in the midst of me anxiety
is the pearl of my soul that is dry dry
Far from calm
because of him I gained a myriad of knowledge
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I learned from him
The teachers of life
who has guided me to the meaning of a struggle
woke me from a long sleep
affirming me when this self is weak without power
Falling, desperate, lazy, absent, falling asleep, slumped prolonged
He uncovers wisdom in every episode of the journey!