I feel I could Die of Life

I feel I could die of life, and I ask myself if it makes any sense to look for an explanation.

When your entire spiritual past vibrates inside you with a supreme tension, when a sense of total presence resurrects buried experiences and you lose your normal rhythm, the from the heights of life, you are caught by death without the fear which normally accompanies it.

It is a feeling similar to that experiences by lovers on the heights of happiness, when they have a passing but intense intimation of death or when a premonition of betrayal haunts their budding love.

E.M. Cioran, 'On the Heights of Despair'
https://www.amazon.com/Heights-Despair-M-Cioran/dp/0226106713

painting by Roberto Ferri