我不会爱人,我不能被爱-散文诗-poem

我不知道怎么做你才愿意和我过下去
爱过的人走了,顺便就灭了我的灯
我不知道怎么打开
不知道怎么躺上床安心的睡上一觉
不知道怎么拥抱着我毛茸茸的玩具
不知道要怎么清醒，像从未爱你
不知道怎么才能留住你

后来，我并不比其他人特别
特别可爱、特别好看
特别容易被呵护
我不知道被弄丢后如何让人不舍
不知道怎么被捡回来
不知道爱是怎么回事

我无知到忘记选择很痛苦、被选择更是难堪
我不知道怎么把庸俗情爱看成艺术与游戏般的佯装
不知道怎么堆叠浪漫的情人节故事
不知道怎么去联想所有未来发生的机率
我不会爱人
我不能被爱

I don't know what to do to make you stay with me
The one I love left me and turned off my light by the way
I don't know how to turn it on
I don't know how to lie in bed and sleep peacefully.
I don't know how to hug my furry toy
Don't know how to wake up, like never love you before
Don't know how to keep you on my side.

Later, I found I was no more special than others.
Special cute nor special beautiful.
Specially easy to be taken care of

I don't know how to make people reluctant to leave me alone
I don't know how to make him chase me back
I don't know what love is about.

I don't know how painful it is to choose to forget, and how hurtfu it is to be chosen.
I don't know how to pretend the vulgar love as art and game.
Don't know how to stack romantic Valentine's Day stories

I don't know how to associate all the chances of future occurrences.
I don't know how to love
I can't be loved.