RECEDING tides......

If I had other words to express this profound gloomy feeling I'd purchase them with my heart.

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If I had anyone to speak for me I'd be so very grateful.

I have no doubt this is all my doing and I just can't express how I was taken so unprepared.

They say the moon is the reason for my actions but I'm not sure how.

Even before I knew you I could feel the tremor driving me wild. I was lost in this state of pandemonium till I saw you., and then my heart was irrevocably gone.

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I couldn't wait to touch your face for I was weak. My bones all waxed into flesh that my boneless being had lost control. How ecstatic!!

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While reaching out I felt your innocence. The aura of hospitality gave me a reason to believe all this was pre-designed. I couldn't tell. It all came in a flash.
Like a trance I got carried away....swept off my feet and before I could begin I was in the middle of what I never really started.
The union was amazing and I just can't forget the memories; aww ....the joy.

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Running through your voids, So interconnected, I almost formed an Aquifer beneath you.
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Suddenly I got my strength. The assurance of a better tomorrow. We both had control, till I was struck by what seemed like lightning.
Everything sucked out of me.

Like I was dragged to hell. Again I was not in control but this time, it was very unpleasant. Whatever drove me to you dragged me away like I had offered a bad sacrifice.

Like Satan took Beatrice from Dante.
It was all happening on a battleground where I had no tools...totally helpless.

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You are so soft and innocent 😇; nothing to hold on to...you were gone.

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With tears running down my confused and guilty mind there's just nothing I can do.

I see myself running away from u.

I know from your point I'm self-propelled.
To you, I show no remorse.
To you, I'm the most despicable thing but I'm sorry.
If this would make you happy pls don't stop.

It breaks my heart to know just how much the topography of the home a fling deceitfully built for us was just a platform for an experiment that had an expiry date... .. .....😢
Maybe nature wanted to know how ppl of our worlds could be.

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I honestly have no doubt if I rolled on to you again, it would be like mercury on the ground. We'll never bond. I'd hate u as u would me.
Instead of an aquifer, I'd form a stream where thieves like pressure and temperature will take away.
I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry.
This wasn't a plot.
I'm sorry.