Inky Blackness
I’m sorry, is my negativity showing?
Sometimes I lie awake in inky blackness, wondering why I can’t seem to get it right.
Which buttons do I push to get this whole thing to work?
How much do I have to grope around in the night?
Sometimes I wish I was an optimist.
And not just a long term optimist, but one who knows today is OK.
I want to be the optimist who knows he won’t forever be swallowed by a suffocating and inky blackness.
That’s not too much to ask, is it? That’s not a tall order once you are done tackling your anxiety.
Once you kill the thought that everything is not OK. Once you put to death the belief that your needs will not be met.
When those wicked thoughts are in their graves, then comes the optimism, right?
I am optimistically hoping so.
I admire the way you write with great candour. It shows a great degree of being at peace with self, quite a contrast to the import of the words in these lines.
Thank you so much for your kind words. I try pretty hard to be honest and open in my writing. Honesty is very important to me.
Its just my plight. Your work mirrors my situation too. Still we have to remain optimistic. Optimisim is key.
Hahahaha guy you er funy dont complain too much
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