Must Not Have

I have to let go of my lover
Among my laughter and sadness
Because loving yourself is sin
And I do not want to be present among you

I love you wholeheartedly
The whole soul continues to want to be with you
But life is not always beautiful
Unlike the orange color of my love

Blessed are you with him
I hope you are happy though not with me
Because I'm convinced my heart is perfect
Loved not to have