This is such a lovely poem. I've had so many conversations with folks over whether or not to take antidepressants or at least see a doctor. I battle with some serious highs and lows on a weekly basis, and it does get dangerous at times. A friend of mine on Instagram (people can totally be friends on Instagram) mentioned not taking any either, his argument based on "He didn't want to support Big Pharma." Mine lies more in the fact that the stuff stays in your system forever and one of my friends tried to come off her antidepressants (in favor of different ones that didn't jack up her bowels) and the side effects were outrageous. I think it would've been easier trying to wean off of heroine, but I dunno.
You're a brave gal, and I don't think I'm right or wrong but I'm so glad you have the help you need. <3