wow...This is a chronicle of your love affair. From intense love to falling apart, unwonted characters and the eventual severance. It could be painful but that show that he never deserved you in the first instance.

But for now I will save myself,
Until I am ready to face the truth.
In a few months someone will wake me,
To a better reality.

The reality will surely dawn of new hope and torrid love. keep yourself and it will arrive with a well-deserving nomad