Toxic. (Part 4.)

Oh, such a fool I was to believe you
Such a fool i was to entertain the thought that this wasn't a one-way thing,
Such a fool to hold onto that lie so tight that you would change for me,
Such a fool to even imagine that you would let me try to save you.

I was conceited, maybe.
I wanted you all to myself, even though you clearly never were.
I was selfish, to claim you as mine when you wouldn't do the same
And when I knew that deep down, inside you
You never wanted me half as much as i needed you.

i guess it was nice to
come home to someone,
but you weren't home anymore.
i made promises i could never keep,
soon they became lies.
but, i was falling in love in
all the wrong places.
but, there was no wrong place,
there were just new places.

Ignorance is bliss,
But it also tore me apart.
I thought if i chose to dismiss it
It didn't exist,
We were fine,
And you actually did love me.
I chose to only see those parts that had "us" written in them
Regardless of the fact that all of the memories I replayed in my head
Felt oddly similar.
Because maybe,
They were the same few ones.
We were never going anywhere,
But I couldn't let you go.
I loved you,
And I couldn't.