The journey through darkness

It’s one of these days that I felt completely empty and alone..

Sometimes you know u r in the middle room full of people yet u can’t connect with anyone

Like nobody gets you...

I have tried to fight this for menu years but today I’m strong and officially admit that I have always suffered from depression.

There are countless nights that I couldn’t get up from bed to do anything and also when it’s time to work I put this act face that I feel normal and laugh to some funny joke that people talked about ..

Many nights has been passed as I cried facing my pillows.. sometimes you feel the pain hurt so much that u thought u are gonna die..

I keep reminding myself that I had a great life but it’s hard to not think about the last time when your parents ask how you are doing ? Is it a week ago, a month ago or a year ago or is it never?

I also feel sometimes that I made myself buried in this sadness forever and don’t let it out because pain is the only thing that remind me that I’m alive..

Why can’t I let go of people that has abandon me?

I know it’s not my fault but why do I always feel that it’s my fault and I am just not worthy enough ..

I know the next day be better but for now .. this will be a sad poem.