Ladyman. The photoshoot reflections of a drag queen.
It takes over two hours. And this shoot was over a year ago, so I was slower then. It must've taken me four hours. To paint over the light white--yet invisible--scars left by angry school boys 20 years ago, scars of being so sure I was somehow off. To tuck away the bits and pieces that are a bit rougher--me, nonetheless very me--but indeed a bit rougher.
After. I bear new scars. From the metal boning of a corset pulled tight. Of women size 11 Mary Janes that cut a couple centimeters too short.
And I delicately touch a flower, or a leaf, or your hair, in a way that is dangerous. In a way that in another time, in another place, it would have been dangerous.
It's a privilege. I know it is. Some baby oil and a makeup wipe, and I get to put it all away. You cannot. But, if I may suggest, let's be grotesque in a way that you and I know is beautiful. In a way that cuts something open and leaves a bleeding edge and maybe eventually a little white scar. But a good one. One that leaves a question for those with seemingly such clear answers.
Your version of woman is so right. My version of me is me.
xoxo,
Belle Bottoms
@missbellebottoms
Beautiful prose; that magic is the closest thing to tangible life I've felt-- the strength in declaring oneself. I spent far too many of my years concerned about what made others happy and I was close to losing myself. Once I showed myself love for who I am, I realized that people saw my happiness and we're able to share in mine and grow in theirs, too. Thanks for sharing your self love.
And the pose you're hitting in the picture with the mountain background is diamond-strength, lady. You look awesome in that copper color
Thank you! Really appreciate your thoughtful words. I'm so glad you didn't lose yourself over those years. And my wonder woman pose is one of my faves! Those Palm Springs mountains don't hurt either.
Ohhhhh you have the most goargious skin and together with the red hair you give Rita Hayworth a run for her money! The first, third and forth are my favs :D
Aww. Thank you!! Best compliment. I'm a huge Rita fan! xo
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Fun.