Short story about judging yourself. When efforts become more important.
Evaluating and judging.
Personally, I am trying to live my life without judging anyone; especially myself. However, that is sometimes a very hard thing to do.
You know that feeling when you wake up in the morning and remember all the things you could have done better yesterday? It feels like...
...And that is how all the bad emotions are born. That is how insecurities and low self-esteem find a way into our minds.
For instance, I know that yesterday I could have spent more time writing and less time faffing around. I did not. That only throws me a few steps away from a theoretical and perfect version of myself. How can it not be depressing to see myself being a lazy-ass?
Makes sense?
Well, it should not.
Logically everything I wrote above is fine, but in reality, the thought of “Perfect me” is one of the worst thoughts that one can have. It pollutes our fragile ecosystem.
I am learning to accept the fact that there is always a better me in a parallel universe. There is always an alternative me, who has it all figured out and does not need to feel the struggle anymore. So what?
As long as I try my best in this world, I will be happy with whatever result I can get. If it means being a failure – let it be. If it means succeeding - good for me.
However, every morning when I think that I could have done more the previous day, I try my best to do that much more this day. I don't just say "Oh well, I am not so perfect and I cannot be." Yup, it is just another extreme put on the other side of the table. It will not bring any good. So where does it leave us?
We must try our best to be perfect and be happy that we are not. Strange, huh?
We cannot know how valuable our work will become, but we can make sure to put as much effort as we possibly can. Sometimes those efforts will be crushed by our laziness and tiresome. Sometimes those efforts will not be enough to buy yourself a treat. It is totally fine. The only thing I know is:
In the long run, we get rewarded for fighting till the end.
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Powerful words! :-)
Thank you @robyneggs! I appreciate that you like it!
Nice post @writingamigo, and I agree with you!
Thank you @cognoscere I am happy that you agree!
Totally agree! Nice post and thanks for sharing @writingamigo
Thanks for the good words @luka.skubonja ! I am glad to share it as long as someone reads it :)
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Thank you I struggle with that , constantly judging everything and everyone, most of the time at least , it's a waste of time , people don't care ,get defensive and think something is wrong with you even if you are telling the truth , most won't face it, so it's a waste of effort , for yourself, yeah it's nice to be hard on yourself , but it's a way to keep yourself down, so it's pointless and unhelpful , best thing would be , learn and move on , don't stay at one place thinking or judging , stop and figure it out, don't just clash two conflicting points till there is nothing left or right for that matter :)
Cheers writer friend, I'm behind on my posts so we all get that :D
go for those runs and it will all blow out :) , later you just have to remember to not get in those vortexes of a stupid reaction and then half an hour has passed and nothing yet happened, because you were busy, weighing what and why and how to make another thing in a illusory situation that no longer exists, because you've already went through it, but problems tend to get those reactions and it's never that easy. Damn you for touching on such subjects , got me again :D
Yeah, I must agree with what you wrote. The best thing I try to do is tell myself a true without judging myself. I am learning to accept all my flaws and even love it. It does not mean that I don't try to get rid of all the crap that I have, but until I have it, I can only live with it in peace.
Or even better, I don't poke the shit that I cannot throw out yet, because it smells. We will never be perfect and that is ok. Doing the right things on a wrong time has never made anyone happy.
I am sorry if you don't like to get touched on those subject, but I cannot help myself!
Cheers! Have a good night. I always appreciate your valuable input in the discussion!
I'm grateful really , just joking :D , normally I don't post long comments so much nowadays and you seem to get me rolling :D , Thank you for finding the important topics :)
I am glad to provide those topics! Thanks for your comments!