I'm learning new things about myself as I'm facing the charts daily. You see, it was not that long ago that I was really worried, that seeing the red candles was causing a negative reaction in my gut, anxiety all of the sudden would kick in and I would begin to wonder if I was going to be ok. In other words, I still did not get it.

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Beyond Price

Something I had not thought about when I first got myself involved with cryptocurrencies. I mean, price seems to be the only thing people talk about, or at least it was when I first landed on the first video from a crypto youtuber. The rhetoric is so much fun, it feels like going to a casino at times. I mean, just imagine: "You buy this coin you know nothing about, and then, because it's your lucky day.... YOU MOON" - What a beautiful thought, what a crazy idea, what a stupid idea, what a delusional thought.

The transition was slow, very slow, but very obvious, very real. I came into this space believing that easy was a thing, that I could for one get a break and with little to no effort have something meaningful. If you would have asked me why, I would have told you because it was about damn time. Yes, my response would have been lacking, but I would have voiced such nonsense with sincerity and unjustified confidence.

What was I thinking? What made me believe there is such thing as luck to begin with, and what's even worse; Why would it be my turn to be the lucky one? I don't know, I did not have a good answer then, I do not have an answer now. But nevertheless, here we are, here I am, sticking around because I'm either an idiot, or I'm one of those seizing luck by the throat.

It's not about the price, at least not right this second. Think about it, spending hours creating content for less than minimum wage hardly sounds like the activity of a man who is in it just for the money. Yes, you could contradict me at this very second, and say that it is, that I'm thinking of what it could represent in the future, so it is about the money, and I would have to concede, but only with one condition. If you accept that all harvesting requires sacrifice, requires work, and that everyone has the ability to put in the time.

You sound insane

If you've began to sound a little crazy to your friends, then you might understand where I'm coming from a little more. After all, there is not a day that goes that I'm not telling someone that most of what we believe in, most of the social norms are just silly stories. A complicated web of lies to keep the machine chugging along. This is money, success means debt, happiness is more things, degrees are important, titles buy you respect, the web continues, the lies are so perfectly woven that we all accept them as truths.

As a matter of fact, there are times that I don't know what to say anymore, and that has began to make me laugh, at least internally. I mean, me someone who is known to not shut up, running out of topics, running out of normal subjects to discuss.

The conversations lose luster, they do. I mean, I don't really feel like celebrating a good discount someone got for black friday, I feel like the very existence of these inane holidays is an insult to the concept of gratitude, a paradox served in two days, one after the other.

I'm not leaving

And I'm wearing the label with pride. I'm going to keep on posting, keep on doing what I have to do to make it, in my own way, with my own rules, even if everything I still hold on to, all the ideas have to be revised or discarded. How could I turn a blind eye to what I now know? Don't know how some people can, but I'm not that flexible, or strong, depends on who you ask.

If you are still here, smiling with me, reading these rants.. from the bottom of my heart, thank you.