Holy shit, Macey. This was just awesome and so so grounded in truth.

I too also learned the hard lesson of how my inner voice gets violent when I don't exercise or eat well or treat myself properly.

I also learned how FAST you can forgive someone when you realize it serves no good to hang on to anger. It was a life changing experience for me. I am kind and friendly towards my ex, whom I have a child with, and he is kind in return and grateful... even though he did some terribly betraying things when we were married years ago. He has since profusely apologized and he even tells new people at family gatherings that the reason we are not together is because he was not good to me.

I choose not to ever bash him or tell others what he did as some sort of aim to make him look bad or make me appear a victim. I am no victim.

I choose how to live my life, no one ever can fucking choose that for me.