#082419 UPDATE | Random Kindness Education Program
It took me weeks to process everything. Like most stories, I had a share of plot twist that caught me by surprise and heartbroken.
When I started the project I really though that the biggest challenge would be to sustain the funds. I was wrong. This project is more than just finances, I became emotionally invested into it as well.
It took me too long to finally accept, and gather myself to write this post. The monthly grant for Milky and Angeline will no longer continue. I talked to the class adviser that is handling them, and she told me about the kids' problem with the attendance. After series of talks, trying to resolve the problem, I've decided today to finally put a closure and move on from this.
This was hard to accept at first. I was silent for a while because I needed time to fully recover from it. The days I spent with the kids is something that would leave a mark forever. It was a bitter sweet experience. I wanted it so bad for them. I dreamed of seeing them in those toga, and I would be teary-eyed just by imagining it (even as I am writing this right now). This is me being sad (and human) because of the turn of events that wasn't what I was hoping for.
On a lighter note, I'd like to think that the kids weren't really that ready for this (for now). Maybe highschool was different from what they're used too, and its just too overwhelming for them. I just hope that they will try again soon.
I am still grateful for that little time we shared together and for giving me a bit of what its like to look after kids. I realized a lot of things, and made me appreciate mothers more. They have the toughest job in the world (like seriously). Its so tough that its like having cerebrovascular accident and myocardial infarction at the same time, every single day. Haha. I have so much respect to all of you who has limitless patience, and loves genuinely no matter how fucked up their kids are. Its the purest love of all.
THE SEARCH FOR THE NEW BENEFICIARY
As we ended the grant for Milky and Angeline, the program is still left with enough fund as of the moment. We have been receiving regular donations from @otom and @mermaidvampire since the last update. The total Steem fund is 186.033, Steem Power 557.118 and Steem Dollars is at 64.623 right now. These are still remaining funds from the previous donors which are discussed in this post.
By the way, last July 9, 2019, I sold 20 SBD to @mermaidvampire for ₱1,020.00 ($20.40).
This was used cover the expenses for the month of July. I also paid $15 for Angeline's 1 set of school uniform.
The remaining funds will be still be intact until we find a new beneficiary for this project. We will be starting the search and we are hoping to find one soon.
I am always grateful for your support and will never get tired of telling you how blessed I am to have found people who believe in this project. All of it was a learning curve, and something that I will treasure for the rest of my life. I would love to sugarcoat it and act tough, but I am humbled by all these experiences. This is way more difficult than what I expected it to be, then again, it was an eye opener for me, and I will carry those lessons as I continue this journey.
The conversation I had with @mermaidvampire few weeks ago made me feel better. It was too heavy and I needed someone, and (as always) she has the perfect words to say. Her brutal honesty, positivity and how she views things is something that I always look up to. Thank you Ate, and congrats on reaching a new milestone. You are an inspiration to all of us.
Goodnight everyone. Its past 2:00AM here in the Philippines. Thank you for your time. Let's focus on our goals, and be persistent. There's always gonna be challenges (and hearbreaks) along the way. At times, you will be needing to pause for a bit to absorb and reflect on things, to understand better, to fully accept that not all things will go as planned, then you can finally move forward and keep going again. 💙
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Sorry it didn't work out for Milky and Angeline.
I will look out for more news on who you find to support next.
Such a sad story. I am so sorry that you were so impacted by these outcomes.
You have a good heart and I hope you continue your giving ways. When i feel sad and lost, I take a lot of walks in nature and it helps a little. Life is complicated sometimes, but it will work out if you have faith. Take care.