Do you really love me?

He said.

I was stunned by that question.

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Wondering what he might be thinking after and before he asked.

I realized many things which made me feel like stupid, or fool.

I made things complicated when in fact everything is just an easy flowing.

I was drowned by the thought that I should protect myself from my knight.

From my protector, from my love.

He asked me with that strong and unflattering question.

“I became distant again, away from the person who only aims to protect me”

I hope I can change for the better, I do hope I can still learn to trust people and believe that they won’t hurt me.

And if they do then, I should learn to accept the pain, I became distant to remove myself from acquiring the pain.

I hope he will still stay the same, (Am I really that selfish? all I want is him and all I want is him to be with me always even if I kept on hurting him all over again)

His love is just selfless, justifiable and everything nice.

It was only I who only and always messes things up.

I love him even if doubts makes me crazy, I love him because he’s everything that I can see myself with.

He’s vulnerable to me, I hope he won’t change that part of him.

I’m so selfish in a way that I always chose to hurt him simply because I doubted him.

I’m so selfish because I kept feeling him down.

I’m so lucky to have him. Even if I don’t deserve to be loved still he stayed, and willing to stay.