Short Entries || Not For Each Other

Did she ever think that we would take different paths? Maybe not, because I hid in innocent smiles the doubts I had in our relationship. Small misunderstandings built up -- our separation became imminent.

          We were both happy in our 2012 birthday celebration. She celebrates her birthday on the 5th of July and I do on the 6th. However, 2013 was different. I realized in this year that differences between our goals and methods to achieve them are irreconcilable.

          She is loving and caring. I can't deny that because it is the trait I liked about her the most. However, it is also her very weakness. She is so loving that she is willing to sacrifice her own aspirations because her mother desires her to land a high paying job. This is despite them having an already well-off life. She was ready to leave arts -- her true love -- so she enrolled in a finance program without her heart and soul in it.

          I tried convincing her that there is life in arts. The passage of time has changed the paradigm and the notion that a person can't thrive in life with a career in arts should be forgotten. I supported her. I bought her arts materials so she can hone her skills on her own, but in the end everything was for nothing.

          Despite this, I can't blame her. I understood her. In the end, it was right that she took her mother's side because we were not compatible. Her mother allowed her to take architecture and I am glad for her. I was not the one she needed -- we were never meant for each other.