I miss him

I sat quietly between the chair and the table beside me, it didn't feel like I was finished with him, yes Tiberias Calvin Natalarik Marcel Saputra call it Calvin, the guy who once accompanied me with joy and sorrow, but unfortunately now becomes a memory.
We have a relationship 2 times, the first is 2 months the second 3 months. So short isn't it? but I still feel love first, because I still love her until we lose contact like this.
It occurred to me to think about my future with him, yes this is what makes me between PASSION and FOLLOWING. Because there is one reason that makes us selfish and makes each other's desires different DIVERSITY, if it's said, Rella doesn't! want to be angry with God, it's useless, there's no destiny for me and Calvin is one.
Sometimes in this class I still remember, the classroom and eighth grade near the TU room, full of memories of me and him together.

In the hall, 7 months ago.
"Do you know Tik?" While gently grabbing my hand
"What is vin?" I asked with a heart beating fast
"I'm very grateful, you can have rich like this" with a sweet smile
"Why? Am I worse than your ex who has been in contact for 3 years? "I said, with my fragile face. I really know if he used to be very happy with his ex, I really know his ex is my friend's elementary school, Novi
"Yes no, he always makes a tantrum. I am sure you will not be the same, your heart is very soft, "he replied, I knew he made me calm down before I actually knew something about those words.
"Ah vin, I am not as gentle as what you say," I said, making him very questioning

7 months ago 2 days ago, and the same place
"Was yesterday our 1st month Tik?" He asked while eating snacks.
"Yes, you forgot?" I asked again, immediately his face turned embarrassed to look at me
"Yes, I forgot sorry" begged him
"No problem," I replied and a smile was small, actually I wished he remembered the anniversary right, romantic.

I never liked texting with him, he only replied rudely. There is no different satisfying word if meeting and seeing the eyes he always makes the sweetest words and makes me unable to forget them.

7 months ago 2 weeks ago, and the same place
"Today, Monday, Vin, I fasted Sunnah Monday Thursday. I beg you not to be close to me when I fear that day will be canceled, "I said, without looking at him even though that day I missed him.
"Oh, no problem. Why are you fasting? Who taught who? ”he asked seriously
"Hmm ... I want to, my brother said to have a sunnah fast" I said nervously, I knew he was not my brother but someone who called me Thembem, and I also liked him even though he was too busy and boring.
"Oh, which sister?" He asked, which made me unable to lie again
"My brother who ... in front of the musholla?" I replied tense, I was afraid if he was angry
"Why don't you tense, Tik, it's bad," he teased, which made me embarrassed by my strange behavior.

On the 26th before the 27th day of my day with him, I broke my relationship with him, so for the reason that this RELIGION is different, in fact I decided this relationship was one that left me, the former ex still bored me, and deterred from having a long relationship with him, and who secondly I have a new hit. I know I'm actually the meanest person, I know that I'm always wrong in his eyes, let alone lying about that problem.

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