hi lugina, my heart goes out to you. I believe you are blessed in a different way. it must be very challenging and be overwhelming at times but you are a mother, woman, mothers know all, can do anything! read this --> https://steemit.com/life/@chuxlouis/best-post-ever-read-to-the-end-please-and-then-upvote-and-resteem I did not write this but I found it when I was reading some posts. It still does not say it all but an attempt :)