That is the path of true enlightenment my friend and it shows you're on the right road, it's hard as it has to be worked for and worked through .. it doesn't come easy and it shouldn't come easy, but from the pain of both physical and metaphysical birth, we obtain profound beauty and wonder. Equally, our individual struggles are indicative of the macro struggle for balance that humanity currently faces.

We all need to find a way to let go and let our path guide us .. equally the construct of society seeks to subvert us from this path. There are a million voices telling us that it's this way or that way but in many ways an enlightenment is more about unlearning than learning, it's about knowing and listening to inner wisdom. At it's most simplistic (and complex) core the nature of reality is a play of energy .. it waxes and wanes and the night gives birth to the chorus of dawn. Duality is the lifeblood of the universe, the difference is we are each given a choice, light/dark .. your choice has been made and there is a strength to be derived from that, there is also a strength to be derived from the light you bring to other peoples lives. If you ever need a different perspective .. you know where I am my brother.