Horizon Of Progressive And Positive Changes

hashsteemin (49)in #nsfw • 13 hours ago

It's been almost a week or maybe more of working on some projects and molding myself to the judgment of the mirror in the most critical manner as I upgraded new persona of the feminine energy that comes from my experience in being the main attraction to the men in my life. I'm pretty sure I know where I will be going to achieve voluptuous breast implants in the nearing future.

I'm going to Tijuana Mexico there's no doubt about it now it seems. I'm still moving in the right direction with my credit and I will be geared towards the dollar signs until I have enough money for the trip and the credit power to finish the cosmetic needs. I'm so far down the rabbit hole that I have developed a new persona for my life and my presence is not conjoint to any more than drop of masculinity and I have it under complete control so that it disappears when I see men. I walk in the most feminine way and it is natural to me now like it is when I set or squat to pee. 💋🥰

Every morning for over a year I put on my panties and breast forms with a bra. Only three friends in my life have been left in the dark and have no clue that I get fucked in my ass by big dick men.....until now as I have received a message from one of my friends who is asking me why I am dressed up in drag on telegram. I have nothing to hide from now and I feel a change in my heart and I sense that I am about to be faced with the final embarrassing conversation and the last of my shame will drain out of me and my courage can extend to conquer fear and replace it with intense desire and joy in my feminine appearance in confidence. So I don't see any other reason why I have to pretend that I don't know how to suck cock. I'm very sure I will lose the few friends that are hearing the truth about me and just now finding out that I have basically been lieing to them for the entire time I have known each of them.

I believe that it is pretty self-expainatory to see me in a mini skirt, heels with my voluptuous fake breast fillers behind my tight shirt and bright makeup on for the first time. I don't know why anyone would feel that they have to have an explanation from me.... either you accept me or you don't...but it will not move me to feel as ashamed as before. I'm still some what embarrassed to be seen in public with a bra that is filled with size D cup titties that I bought from Amazon. It will be much better if I didn't have to be afraid of one of my boobs falling off my body and rolling out the bottom of my shirt then landing on the floor in front of everyone in a restaurant or a Walmart. Other than that I have struggled to hide my voice from other people even though it doesn't sound as much like a dude as it did six months ago. It is most definitely a work in progress with many challenges and changes in the life of not just myself, but others also have to take on a personal new approach to their relationship with me and look inward to themselves in search of the way they interpret it. Usually I find religious people's beliefs about sexuality has already been determined by the status quo of their church or faith. They also seem to be the same people that appear to be hurt by my actions as what they call homosexuality no matter what I identify as.

It is a big word for almost everyone these days and the way it makes us feel is in uncountable and unbelievable ways. For myself it's a great big part of the shadow work, my sexuality and the truth in which has remained hidden until this last year. It has gotten the attention of every court in the country as well as the religions from every continent in the world by now and it will start to become a lighter issue for everyone as more of us become acceptable to the nature of our concepts.