Fantasy And The Rabbit Hole Of Feminization

Male to Female transformation takes the most of us on a personal journey to learn more and more ways to make ourselves more feminine and enhance that feeling as much as possible. We are not all the same as one another and each one of us has to go down our own path to become a trans. woman. I have taken the opportunity to experience the point of view of a woman's perspective in various situations and it always makes me feel less masculine and more feminine. As a submissive I am turned on when I cook, clean and serve a masculine man's wants and needs in many ways.

When I feel a man's sperm being released inside of me I instantly grow more submissive to him and glow with feminine energy that stays with me for hours afterwards. The last year I have been with the same few men and I have been completely dedicated to my feminine appearance all day every day. I'm getting fucked almost everyday and sometimes several times a day by them and I have become infatuated with the sensation of a belly filled with a huge load of a man's cum. Jeremy and I have been fucking almost a year and I am always more than thrilled to see him putting his hard dick between my wide open legs and start showing me what I was born for....he turned my dials into his bitchs control switches and has fucked me into a girl with his stay hard cock in many sessions that almost always go on for two hours or longer. I'm constantly looking up at him and running my fingers through his chest hair while he makes me have multiple orgasms around the girth of his cock. It gets better almost everyday and I adore the way he gets hard so many times and I can see how he enjoys doing it every time. My imagination is dangerous and I have become aware of the potential trouble I could get in by giving it to much freedom with my time....I started thinking and saying out loud things like breed me daddy...oh god I wanna have your fucking baby daddy...etc as I noticed it was just as much a turn on for him to hear me as it is for me to say it. Then last night and part of today I put on maternity pants and I stuck cotton in the part where a baby was supposed to be and made myself a pregnant girl and it was very realistic looking. It was hot and I jizzed so many times pretending to be his babies momma. I haven't built up enough courage to tell him about any of this little role of being a pregnant girlfriend yet and I don't know if I will or not.

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I couldn't believe how much I was aroused with this role playing experience that seems so silly to me when I think about it sometimes. It has a unexpected impact on my femininity and it shines light on my divine feminine mindset which enables me to feel the mother's nurturing essence inside me in the most joyous way. I'm going to do a full twenty four hours and I want to get more intricate with the entire experience by making it more realistic looking and feeling as a woman would have to carry the child's weight etc. I'm uncertain about making Jeremy aware that he is a make believe father although I would like to have all of the joys and pains that come with the involvement of the father. It's not something that I think will be a permanent feature of my life as a trans woman and after all the real concrete is down to reveal the end result of myself I will have taken everything I needed from this experience and it will always be in embedded within the foundation.