Madness out of orbit

I think it's not good to remember
But I choose to have you in my thoughts
You are present among my fluids
From experience you are closer than it seems

We all like to remember our experiences
We all like to look back

The light in my room went out
I can't stop and I know that I know the end
I will not retract the actions I do
Some say life is a journey

But I choose to think you and have you as my protagonist
You are still present among my thoughts
You're still present while I masturbate

I will never stop being the first man
Get as far as any man

I was so daring to open your doors
Break all those chains that hold your virginity
All those chains became a wish
Sorry but I was unfair I just wanted to try
I'm primitive, it's true that I think I don't like it
A commitment that subject me to damnation
But in a somewhat happening I like to be free.