Oh my brother.
What to say about the truth, how to find some light in that great darkness?

I can only say that the fear we have is the greatest tool they use against us. It creates a chemical reaction in our brain that causes us to make bad decisions. If we can overcome our fears we can overcome this! They know this like the bully at school knows this. We are men we have to stand up.
Jeremiah 48:10 Cursed be he that doeth the work of the LORD deceitfully, and cursed be he that keepeth back his sword from blood.