I grew up with very if any fear of physical danger and at 19 in the hills of San Francisco
I grew up with very if any fear of physical danger and at 19 in the hills of San Francisco on the 6Day I literally just jumped off the end of the plank and thoroughly enjoyed most of the physical activity. I was however intrigued by how the idea of the mind of the fear of the physical reality of the situation stopped people, especially if they had any conversation about their physical or mental ability to overcome a physical situation but this so-called physical or mental reality and fear of it could also be ignored and overcome by the desire of the mind to conquer that conversation.
My own experience of this came from the morning runs. The first day we went out I ran with all the enthusiasm and joy of a young buck. Never really having enjoyed running and not being particularly fit I had not paced myself and ended up collapsed on the side of the road being sick. I Finally got round but very bedraggled. 2nd day I ran out much more cautiously, took my time, stopped occasionally, and made it round in one piece. Obviously during the day while this was all going on we were doing work in the seminars so my thoughts on what was going on for me on these runs were developing. 3rd day I decided I could run without stopping, just pace myself properly and I’d make it all the way around and create some feeling of achievement. I did and was satisfied with the outcome. It didn’t matter what position I came in or my time just that I had done it in one go without stopping. 4th day my thinking had been affected by the notion that this didn’t have to be all about me and if I just got out of the way of myself who knew what would happen, how I would feel, what would I get? I went out with the aim to support, engage with and encourage the other runners around me. I did this with full enthusiasm and commitment. Eventually close to the end, I realized that to do this I had had to run past everybody to get to the people in front of me that I hadn’t shared with. This came as a moment of clarity, an epiphany of what was possible. I felt no pain, no physical fatigue. I literally could not feel myself running. I was flying free from restraints. I could change up into another gear and run like the wind. I had literally had to pass everybody to keep it being about somebody else other than me. I had had to share with everybody so that everybody could have the possibility of being alive and fully present to the possibilities of a life unencumbered by consideration and yet right at the end when it came down to it and I was coming in around the top 10, it was once again suddenly all about me, just for a moment. Look what I had achieved, look what I had been able to do with the conversation that had come out of the work! Fortunately, the experience left me feeling very calm, humbled, and still. Having time to look back on it I got to see the bigger picture. To live life as a project that is bigger than yourself gives you access to a whole new realm of possibility