I feel you, mate.
Even if the system seems to make us feel like serfs in some neo-feudalistic society, they may have power over finances, but they cannot control your mind and your heart so don't let them have that power too.
As Ben Harper sapientially said, "You gotta fight for your mind" and Bob Marley wisely sang, "Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery, none but ourselves can free our minds..."
It's up to us whether we give over control of everything or not.
You seem like a great spiritual warrior who has yet to fully tap into your incredible wellspring of inner power.
It's important to focus on what's right in front of you and look at those views and deeply breathe in all that glorious nature!
You're right! Nature heals the wounded warrior.
Thanks for bravely sharing your heart and mind!
Blessings and smiles
in joy
Nathan
NK