Lessons from Mother Ayahuasca. Night 9: Breaking curses and "leveling up" my abilities

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Goddamit! I wasn't going to write any more of these posts but @clayboyn and @bearone have both been in my ear, telling me I should share my experiences since I'm getting massive 5D energy downloads from the universe at the moment, which could help someone. Those who resonate with my blog will find it, and hopefully not think I'm weird or insane. So here we go again with a crazy new round of yagé stories!

Back in June and early July, I attended four ceremonies with Taita Richard, another Colombian shaman who I'd heard great things about. He's young, like in his 30s, so he brings a lot of energy to his ceremonies. He also encourages everyone to keep drinking the yagé and go deep. He's basically a magician and the most powerful shaman I've sat in ceremony with so far.

My intention tonight was "show me what I need to see". I've moved away from specifics now. Mama Aya gives you whatever she wants anyway, so why fight it? Plus thinking up intentions over and over is hard. I took my first cup and waited, since generally, not much happens to me until the second cup goes down. Well, that's what used to happen.

There was a guy in front of me and it was his first time taking yagé. It kicked in for him almost straight away and I've never seen anyone react like this. He was rolling around on the floor and looked like he was going through an exorcism. It was a little scary, I'll admit. All the helpers were with him so he wouldn't hurt himself or others, and Taita Richard was doing whatever shamans do when people go to weird/dark places.

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Since I can help people in ceremony, I wondered what I could do for him. Could I send him some love and healing energy? I wasn't really "in the medicine" yet, so I didn't know if that would work. Then I heard someone playing the maracas. This is not an uncommon sound in ceremony, but it was continuous and I realised it was a sign for me to do a shamanic journey (something else I've gotten into in a big way recently). The music I listen to when I go on shamanic journeys has maracas playing at the start and end. So, I lie on my mat and go on a yagé enhanced shamanic journey. As you do.

Pretty much straight away I realised that I'd gone back into one of his past lives. The first thing I felt is tightness around my neck. I thought he was being hanged, but that wasn't it and I'll come back to it later. He was on a sinking boat on rough seas and that's why he was rolling around on the floor. The boat was throwing him from side to side. In this journey he was calling out "no one's listening to me" over and over so I said to him, "I'm listening, what do you want to say?" He replied, "tell my family I love them". I said ok, and then I went to find his family. I found a wife and a daughter so I passed on his message. Then I had an overwhelming feeling that a curse had been placed on him and that was responsible for this sinking boat he was on. I can't break curses (yet) so I called in my spirit guides asked them to break it, which they did. I remember seeing all these light fragments around me as they broke it. So, I went back to him on the boat and said I've told your family that you love them, and by the way, I've removed the curse on you so you're free now. I then came out of the shamanic journey. In the meantime, he'd been taken outside to the grass, and he'd stopped yelling. I will return to this story later.

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Then I took the second cup of yagé and within two minutes I was "in the medicine". I think that is the quickest amount of time it's worked on me so far. That's how strong Taita Richard's yagé is. I had a vomit not long after, but since I hadn't eaten all day (fasting for as many hours as possible is definitely the way to go), all that came out was yagé and water. Of course, I asked what it was and the response I got was "self-obsession". This actually made a lot of sense based on on the Gene Keys, which I've been dabbling in. (I'm dabbling in a lot of things these days.) It's related to your time of birth and shows your core shadow work. For the past few days I'd been obsessing over self-obsession so I was happy to let that go.

After my purge, I felt really good and lay down on my mat and the visions started. Tonight I could literally see the vibrations of the music and the icaros that Taita Richard was singing. I could see how each vibration goes into the body and pulls stuff out, causing a purge. Different notes and sounds work in different ways and it was super cool to watch and understand.

While I was immersed in the nitty-gritty, Taita Richard was using his music and words to raise the frequency of the room and get everyone purging at the same time. Then he would drop it back down and give everyone a rest, and then raise it again. This cycle went on for ages and, holy fuck, it was intense. By this point I was so deep in the medicine I didn't need my eye mask. I could see the frequency in the room with my eyes open or shut. As he raised the frequency I could see the energy getting tighter and tighter, and then drop off a bit when everyone relaxed. But unlike everyone else, I was not purging. Mama Aya had given me a separate role in all this.

I am still learning how to ground energy properly and this is my biggest problem since I'm sensitive to what's happening around me. I absorb the energy of the room and either transmute it into something else, or ground it to Mother Earth. Tonight, I had a vision of Taita Richard coming to me and telling me to keep my arm on the ground and saying "don't move, don't move, keep your arm on the ground, you've got this". I could even feel a weight on my arm all night, holding it down.

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Then, as he was raising the vibration of the room, my feet were acting like antennae and I was taking the energy from everyone who was purging and transmuting it into healing and love and sending it back out. This part wasn't new, but taking it from other people (not just the music or the moon) and being able to see it was. And at one point I was felt like I was in three separate dimensions doing this. I could see myself underground like when I became Mother Nature on Night 3, in the present dimension in the room, and in this other dimension where I could see all the energy around me. It was super trippy and despite the intensity of it all, it felt really awesome. I also saw how everything is based on sacred geometry. I can't explain it, but I was seeing the molecular structure of the universe. This was my intention from Night 7, a few weeks ago. I was happy that I got it eventually.

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My friend Eva was with me tonight and it was her first time on ayahuasca/yagé. She was definitely getting some tough love from Mama Aya and Taita Richard and was purging a lot. At one point towards the end of the night, I could tell she wanted to release something but she wasn't able to (at least not at the start). But now, I could grab the energy component of it. So I began pulling this energy from her and kept on pulling until eventually, she let it go. I then tried with a few other people near me and the same thing happened. I could sense they were trying to release something and I could grab the energy component of whatever it was and help them release it. Super cool. And definitely the first of a few "level ups" in my healing abilities, which I will discuss in upcoming posts.

It was now morning and the cursed guy from earlier returned from outside. Once the medicine had worn off I spoke to him and told him what I experienced. As I was telling my story, he was nearly in tears and afterwards said a lot of what I said was resonating and made sense to him. He told me that he has an ex-wife and a child in the US, but the relationship is strained and he can't express himself easily to his son. I then realised the tightness I felt on my throat was his blocked throat chakra. He didn't tell me what he was experiencing while he was rolling around but that's ok. I know a lot of what happens during purges is deeply personal. That said, I was still confused by the curse since it just sort of appeared out of nowhere. It wasn't until two weeks later and I was telling the story to one of the shaman assistants that it all made sense. The assistant told me that when they took this guy outside, he was literally swimming in the grass and was desperately trying to get somewhere. I said "of course he was swimming, he was on a sinking boat". We then realised he runs a business that involves him being on the water. Combined with him having one child in this life who he can't talk to, he was still living out the curse in this life. When we put all the pieces together, we looked at each and had a "holy fuck" moment.

But wait, there's more. There is a past life connection between this guy and Eva, which we are still trying to find out the details of. There are too many synchronicities between their stories for it to be nothing. And both Eva and I really want to know how he is doing now that a few weeks have passed. We've decided that we will go visit him sometime soon. He lives in a small coastal town and he told us where he works so it will be easy to casually drop in and see him.

And on that stalker-y note, I will bring this post to a close. Everyone I spoke to in the morning agreed that it was a super intense night, but with all the vomit, shitting and crying came a lot healing. And in the words of Taita Richard, this was just the introduction. The main event on Saturday night was still to come!

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