First single of my upcoming album: Blade under the pillow / Erste Single meines kommenden Albums: Klinge unterm Kopfkissen

(EN)
I want to present you the first single of my upcoming album today.
"Blade under the pillow" tells of the impulse to end everything, but which is always intercepted by the will to live.
The blade under the pillow, which should facilitate the finish, always stays there in the end and the new day begins with the knowledge that life is worth living.

Lyric translation:

Today is not a good day, no really it is not great
I have to get out of here and wonder what this mild fun is supposed to do here
Why do I feel so lonely among all of you
Leave me alone, this shit is just my stuff

I have to get out of here to hide quickly would be awesome
I go home and get the blanket out of the chamber
I cover myself on my couch up to my forehead
And then I'm briefly satisfied not to listen to you anymore

But only briefly because this fall is apparently unstoppable
At this point comes my wish to just turn me off
And I weigh up what binds me to this life here
It always means that happiness can be found in a small form for everyone

While I notice that everything seems pretty pointless to me
I reach for the blade and then say I'm ready
But something is slowing me down and I've often experienced that
I go to bed and put the blade under my pillow

Refrain:
Please give me the courage to die tonight
The decision to be free
It is certainly bitter, but they will inherit songs
And I'm never alone anymore

so many nights with the blade under the pillow
I am the next one I thought and I have to know
that it doesn't go up anyway, no matter what you do
and because it takes a lot of courage, a little attempt is good for me

I just wake up at night and a little sleepy
I quickly reach for the blade and then I have it in a few hours
I put on then pull through and close my eyes
fall asleep again and there's nothing to stop me

you have to understand that this seems to me to be the last resort
if you don't see anything good anymore, the view remains small
just gray in gray, like in prison and look
how you don't need this rest of me here among you

it fights inside me and screams I just have to dare
and I can't do much more than watch
when the thoughts fought over my head
I put the blade quietly and secretly under the pillow

Refrain

Last Refrain:
And you give me the courage to live again every night
The decision to be strong
And the blade just stays there under the pillow
Because I'm not alone here

(DE)
Ich möchte euch heute die erste Single meines kommenden Albums präsentieren.
"Klinge unterm Kopfkissen" erzählt von dem Impuls mit allem schluss machen zu wollen, der aber immer wieder von dem Willen zu leben abgefangen wird.
Die Klinge unterm Kopfkissen, die den Abgang erleichtern soll, bleibt zuletzt doch immer dort liegen und der neue Tag beginnt mit dem Wissen, dass das Leben es wert ist gelebt zu werden.

Danke euch für´s Hören :)