A ticking time bomb.

So apparently a while after my first post here (introductory post) I went AWOL. Can I explain why it happened ? No I can't but I will try. I think some events happened leading to me becoming emotionally withdrawn , I didn't care about my relationship with both friends and family, I mean I ceased every opportunity to block out any 'unnecessary' form of interaction. I was sometimes very irritated at the sound of my phone ringing, I could go a few days without bothering to charge my phone. Socializing became a problem for me. Did I contemplate suicide..... No,,,,,,,,am not sure. I am usually a quite person but people who really knew me sensed they was something really wrong and I am so grateful I was found out on time.
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Am sure you are wondering why I am bothering you with my personal story here........... Depression!!!

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Depression has silently slipped into our communities without us noticing. Growing up I knew and heard of the word but it was mostly in 'oyibo films' so I concluded it could only affect oyibo people (whites) but it's actually just like death, it knows neither race, class, age nor gender.

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It slowly grips you and before you know what's happening it's full blown and turns into a tragedy.
Sometimes it is confused for mood swings but my friends please check it. If the mood swings are becoming too frequent check yourself. Do a mental review and try to understand how you feel. On the other hand, check on that family member or friend who hasn't checked on you for a while, it won't kill you. You'll never know you could be someone's SAVIOUR.
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More importantly GET HELP. Talk to someone your trust about how you feel,get a new hobby, travel, meet new people, be happy and positive, enjoy life, make friends and fall in love ♥ but with the right people. Learn to love yourself, you are beautiful, unique and intelligent. Do not allow anybody make you feel less.