Part II. Masturbation & Not Giving a Fuck

 

Long ago I fell in love with a woman that I met online. I don’t believe in marriage but this was the closest feeling of inspiration and desire to be with this antinatalist the rest of my life. I don’t want kids, she doesn’t want kids, neither of us wanted kids, but damn did I fuck her so good and we both came so hard it was as if we wanted octets. I’ve never fucked a pussy that was so steaming hot. She challenged me, and in challenging her, I learned she was the most intelligent woman I’ve ever been with. I don’t like to be dominated by anyone except highly intelligent women, and in the end she cucked me. After being cucked, the way I see this era of love and relationships is entirely critical - I question the veracity of love, in all its ideological dimensions. It’s good that this woman broke my heart. It’s always a good idea to get your heart broken - if I get Freudian, I would say that its impact causes the body to strengthen its death instinct. It teaches the body an experience in death - loss. When she broke up with me I’ve never jaghed so hard to internet porn in my life. I didn’t even have a favorite porn star, I feel like I saw them all, and watched them all. I was in a porno stupor looper. When this woman broke up with me, all I did was go into a daze of pure, delicious, and beautiful hedonistic hibernation-masturbation. 

The great divide is there. Whether tis nobler to jagh, or suppress that joyous tempting sensation one has before giving in to a masturbation session. Institutions fuck up our way of thinking for ourselves in making the choices that can serve a good life in the long run - the choice for masturbation is one of them. The topic is old, ancient, but honestly, even Jesus, who I love dearly knew that masturbation was a balancing act. Yet, somehow western culture and America took celibacy, puritanical beliefs and all kinds of guilt-trip Catholic shit into a mutated direction that aspects of the human consciousness trap us from having an intuitive understanding of the human body. In modern western culture, minds get trapped in virtual fantasies through the act of masturbation that it’s a big stain from all the work that the ancestors of white people have done. So, looking into studies regarding the benefits of masturbation, or the lack there of, are poles apart, reaching no union or bridge - that is, a balance. Studies say that masturbation will make your brain smaller. Other studies will say that it is good for men’s prostrate. The way I see it is, I am more in love with women masturbating than men going at it. I think women should masturbate all day errrrday. Men on the other hand, get fucked up when they jagh even though it is a completely normal human activity. The reason for this is because I’ve discovered that it is much funner to explore a woman’s favorite spot while having sex rather than jaghing like a loser. Whether it is raw dog, or with a condom, exploration is crucial in life. So, if I have to have sex, I have to have bomb fucking sex - like it has to be the bomb. The pussy of the aforementioned woman who broke my heart became heated and wet because of how great we connected during sex - and that is something that a hotpocket in my hands couldn't give me. 

For some reason, I am more in love with the thought of women masturbating rather than men doing it. For women it appears to be a spiritual experience. Men need to learn that they are just a tool for a woman’s orgasm - that’s why it’s important to always have a hard cock. This is the reason I’ve quit masturbation. I can’t always have a hard cock if I jagh all the time, no girl would ever ask to fuck. Also, porn is fucking boring. I tried the other day to jagh to porn as I felt very horny. I went into xnxx, and saw some fucking, and I got bored, said man fuck this shit. Also, most of these men in porn I feel are not doing a good job, so I am cucking myself just sitting there watching a woman taking it by another man who is fucking like the 15th woman that day on set. That’s the thing, if I was a porn director, I would use the same couple on all my shoots, just doing random bomb fucking in different spaces. In this way, I feel viewers can learn more about the act of sex as they witness the couple discover spots as they progress the intensity of their lovemaking. Kinda like playing Mortal Kombat when all the sudden you send the opponent to another world, and the fight continues there.
 

Girls. Are. Everywhere. I see beautiful women everywhere, and writing about women is a great responsibility. They can take over the planet if they want to. Women experience sex in such a beautiful way that it is my responsibility to work on always having a hard cock because without a hard cock, nothing will ever be accomplished in life. To this I say, always have a hard cock because you never know when a woman will come along and ask to fuck. She would never say that directly, but she will find ways to express how she feels, in ways that will scare you. If the fear comes from the navel, it means the body is trapping energy in that area and it must be directed to the lower chakra. The penis must receive this energy. Do not be afraid. The balance between the navel chakra and lower cock chakra is tough though because to have a hard cock and staying focused on doing mental work requires a sharp mind and a strong nervous system - that is, a balanced mind. I would say everything requires a balanced mind, like sports too. Athletes get laid the most, especially basketball players - so even they have to find that balance - because if they jaghed and had sex all the time, they would lose games, and lose their mojo. Women look for this balance in men - in mind, praxis, and good sex. Masturbation will never help a man achieve such things. 

I am more of a spiritual person now. Though I am not the type of spiritual person who is just waiting for destiny to throw pussy at me. I am more about making discoveries about the things that women do each day, and connect on another level beyond the sex. I am not attempting to be an internet womanizer, or give anyone instructions on how to make a woman wet - I don't even know about these things. All I know is that connecting with a woman on a higher frequency level is a real sensuous experience worthy beyond a simple jagh.  If I have connected with a girl I like, I am more interested in fucking her brain and therefore stimulate ourselves to a level where the sexual act itself erupts with intensity. I am a true sapiosexual in this sense. That's why I rather read a book a day, and so far I am almost there, I read about 3/4 books a week on average, and I am still fucking dumb, so I have awhile to go. Knowledge is worth the fuck. So finding women that want to get their brains fucked is all me. It’s taken me time to have all my desires in check, and it’s what I am actually into. I am pretty much done with masturbation at this point.  

Besides, masturbation is all about learning simple tricks, and not about love making and connecting with partners. Masturbating to online porn allows the user to discover secrets about testosterone that are apparently hard to find while making love to a woman. The more I jagh the higher chances I have of a harmful website learning my information and selling it on the internet. They learn about what kind of women I am into fucking based on my searches and the videos I have actually jaghed to, but it’s not at all accurate because I am really into all kinds of women. Masturbating takes away from a man’s soul and energy these days. Since practicing Qi Gong, I keep my energy throughout my body and concentrate on having that big cock on the lowest chakra. Having a hard cock is not just about sustaining energy for an opportunist fuck, it’s about balancing one’s own existence. I would much rather work with women and open my heart with them, than being awkward and having thoughts about fucking them.  

I own feministwikipedia.com because I for one would like to see the possibility of a proper discussion about feminism for women. For example, how many women are aware of this? Men should be involved, on the side of women, listening to women, in the process of consciousness-raising about fucking, sex work, (re)production rights, sexism, and so on.  These discussions don’t have to be academic or intellectual, they can even be dumb - shit, they don't even have to talk about feminism, but about women/female shit. And it can be done amongst women themselves. I am more of like the cuck custodian ensuring the space is safe and that everyone has what they need to do their thing. Fuck, I don’t even want to get involved in the discussion either, I just want to help create a space where women have the opportunity to express knowledge and how they want to edit encyclopedia articles about said topics and what they actually mean. Why would thousands of women who consider themselves intelligent only read the writing of professors without really cultivating their own ideas? It’s not that I am a reformed man, life is funner when these discussions take place, and a synthesis has a potential to bring joy. This is the reason why I stopped jaghing a lot because I empathize and love women beyond trying to fuck them. (On some days that may not be entirely true).

On our site, most of the women who give us traffic are pornographers and female news pundits, usually in the middle of the night too.  So I’ve taken the time to read about their life and how they got into porn, or politics and such. It is my duty to remain objective when I write their biographies and their pages. This knowledge alone has made me so empathetic that I rather connect with women on a human level rather than virtual. I rather connect with humans about what they love and aspire to do, their passions, and of the things they persevere in a way where transferring it digitally is worthy of presentation to the rest of the internet kingdom.   

I’ve heard that elite wikipedia editors like to masturbate a lot. at this point, I must admit that I love wikipedia, I grew up using it, and learned so much from using their platform, so if I am throwing some shade it’s because I am more about setting the knowledge free and not about sustaining any power regarding the collection of knowledge. They are also sexist and some of them are also racist. I could never compete with these men. I can’t write and attempt to have ownership of shit the way they do. I get joy from learning about people and contributing to their life in a positive way, especially women, when I write about them. I ignite a woman’s biography by writing something about them, so that they are encouraged to join and sign-up on the website and continue to improve their information. They can cite themselves too regarding information about themselves and also get verified. Women can put me in my place too, they can talk shit about me if they want, no qualms, no hate from my side. It would be great if women took over our website and dominated me in particular, and tell me what to do. I gives no fuck.  

Even if I chose to jagh right now, I would do it out of love for my body, and not because I gave into lust. Everything is of higher value when it is done with love. And right now, I am discovering how to love in my own way - it's a lot of cuck work, but in the end I know all will be good. Women will choose to do whatever the fuck they want, and not give a fuck anyway...