Wrong love

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True love ?, what is true love? does true love really exist? I do not believe any more true love after I was betrayed by someone I really love. I love him in silence, Only I who harbor this feeling without him knowing it. I and he are a class, I can say I love him at first sight and no one knows it. I've had this feeling for a long time, ever since I sat on the bench XI ips 1. His son was ordinary, not handsome, not smart, in fact he rarely went to school. I do not know what makes him so lazy to go to school. I want to approach him, I want to greet him, I want to talk to him even if it's just a stale, but he's a kid who rarely talks and is indifferent.

Days change month and month change year, Not feel I have stepped on second semester. I could say I had this feeling for a whole semester, I do not know if he might harbor the same feeling, Ah maybe not. I always pay attention to his gestures, I always smile his own smile while watching him and unknowingly I'm also being noticed by my friend
"Naaahhh, Hayoo again merhatiin who?" Said my friend
"Hahh, I do not see who's who" I replied
"Do you like him? Let me salamin "said my friend again while running and approached the guy I noticed
Oh god, really embarrassed my hell who asked to disalamin with him, should not he who said.
I pinched my friend all out.
"Why disalamin sih embarrassed" I say putting a lotun face
"Calm aja, Ntar I do business with a close friend so you can invite same as him" replied my friend
My friend this one is very good to me, I've considered him as a brother. We were friends when we were junior and not very familiar, because I thought he was Sok, Arrogant but my guess wrong he was a good person and understanding, And I started close to him when I entered high school, he who became my friend sat Until now I class XI.

We started close and I was a group with him in the Indonesian language lesson, Glad I did not imagine. Day changed and what my friend planned to do He asked for my phone number and I gave it. Go home school I wait for sms from him and right my phone rang marks there sms from him I am very happy and Over time I was invented with him.

But, all did not go with what I expected. All disappeared after I found out he was cheated, and from then on I did not trust him anymore, I started to ignore him. I hate this situation, I think if he does not love me why still defend me? why did not he just end this relationship? He said he still loves me but his cool attitude makes me not trust him. I finally forgave him, and he promised not to repeat it again and I trusted him.

Two days have passed the problem of infidelity, Another problem comes. My friends ask me if it's still or it's over, I answered "still", "But why do you rarely talk to him, why do not you just ignore", said my friend
"I do not know" I replied curtly

My friend told me that he had a relationship with a friend in front of him. He looks very romantic, handrails and it makes me even more angry, Now I do not want to know, whatever he wants anyway, I'm tired

Perhaps with her she can find the meaning of happiness
Never mind until here I love him.
And from now on I do not believe in love and man anymore.
Let me enjoy my day with my own