Rela, When I'm Willing to Release You

A man glanced at the black, circular watch in his hand.
"We meet after school. About 3 o'clock. Tell other osis members, "said Dzaky, the osis chairman.
"All right," replied one of the members of the osis.

The first day of being a freshman at school was hard. Difficult to adapt to new people. This is what Carissa, a cute girl who has a very sweet dimples. Although this city is the hometown of Carissa. But for 2 years left the city called this rain city, Carissa
feel alien to the city of Bogor. Many changes that make Carissa feel confused. Two years ago Carissa was forced to change school, because her father was assigned to the city of Surabaya. Carissa who was still in junior high school must be willing to leave his best friend in Bogor. Actually Carissa happy to be back to the city of Bogor because it means he can meet his friend he really missed.

"Carissa." Shouted a girl.
Carissa turned to the source of the shout. He found a girl who was running towards him. Carissa narrowed her eyes and confirmed her glasses. Apparently the girl is Elvia. Her best friend during junior high. A friend who never tired of contacting Carisaa while in Surabaya, a very carissa friend missed. Carissa smiled happily as she confronted her best friend. Elvia hugged Carissa warmly. They both hugged like a pair of brothers separated for years.
"I miss you Sa." Elvia said as she let go of her embrace.
Carissa nodded slowly. "I'm also Vi."
"Lo much changed yes Vi, now lo kinda thin and more beautiful." Carissa praise sincerely.
"Oh, yes? Means my diet program succeeded dong, "said Elvia chimed in.
Carissa and Elvia laughed giggly.
"What class are you in?" Elvia asked.
"The headmaster said, XI Ipa 4."
Elvia spread her eyes. "Ha? Seriously Ipa 4? My class is the same, "Elvia commented with delight.
"Oh yes?" I said incredulously.
Elvia nodded steadily. And they both immediately walked towards their class.



"Hours 3 osis meeting," said a woman who was talking to Elvia.
Carissa looked at Elvia who was coming toward her.
"Here ya batagornya," said Elvia while thrusting batagor.
"Thanks Vi"
Elvia nodded with a smile.

"Vi, who was that girl?" Carissa asked.
Elvia lifted her eyebrows. "Which girl?"
"That's the tablet that was giving info osis."
"Oh, that's Keyla's. Captain cheers in high school. "
"Wow must be popular yes, just beautiful," Carissa commented praised.
"Yes it is popular and beautiful but it is not really Sa."
"What does it mean?" Carissa asked, not understanding.
"Later you know too."
Carissa just nodded. No further questions.
"Vi, kak Dzaky school where ya now?" Carissa asked quietly.
"Oh dear yes ka Dzaky. I want to talk about it with you, "said Elvia with her mouth still filled with batagor.
"Speak what?"
"Kak Dzaky osis leader in SMA Pangkal Perjuangan this," said Elvia.
"He also asked for news of Sa. Since you've moved to Surabaya, I do not know how Dzaky's kak has ever been close to girls, "Elvia explained.
"Do not you think?" Carissa asked incredulously.
Elvia looked at Carissa sharply. "Do not you trust this friend of yours?"
Carissa did not answer anything. He was silent with his own thoughts. Once in junior high school iya had fallen in love with his class sister named Dzaky. Apparently Dzaky also has the same feeling with Carissa. When Dzaky conveyed his feelings to Carissa. Carissa refused, because Carissa would move to Surabaya. Starting from then on Carissa tried to bury her feelings for the man who had a well-built body and her shady eyes.
"Please do not bell Sa, do not ngelamunin ka Dzaky continue." Elvis ceplos who realize that Carissa was daydreaming.
"Whoh who ngelamunin ka Dzaky. Sok tau. "Carissa answered reasonably. Elvia just chuckled at seeing her friend's face tighten.

not feels buzzer school was reads. Wall clock also shows 3pm. "sa, Lo home first Aja Yes? I there are meeting OSIS first NIH." said Elvia tell. Carissa install the face manyun flagship. "Yes already Deh." "haha, Yes already I first Yes." said Elvia as he walked away. Carissa running slow down the corridor school. Carissa the middle binding long hair. runs somewhat down. and accidentally body Carissa hit the person who middle bring pile of the book. "Aww, ill." said Carissa affected books. "Oh sorry." said someone who is the middle of cleared his books that fell. "Lo not Papa right?" asked people who hit Carissa. Carissa shook his head slowly. "I also wrong. road while looking down." responsible Carissa. turned out to the person who hit Carissa is a man with a White and have eyes narrow. Carissa who want to continue the journey detained by men it. "wait. new kid Yes?" Carissa nodded. "name?" "Carissa." "XI IPA 4." add Carissa, before the man catapult next question. the man smiled. and let Carissa continue journey. 'Oh Ade class. beautiful' said Daniel in his heart, and soon bring books was falling. "Yes alright, meeting up here only first. later if there are additional things we meeting back. thank you for participation." said dzaky with friendly. member OSIS the other was, rushing to go home. "vi" Sapa dzaky on Elvia. "eh Yes, train?" "there are new kid Yes in class you?" asked dzaky. "Yes, train, know not who child his new?" asked Elvia face jailnya. "do not. emang who?" "want to know Yes?" asked Elvia intriguing dzaky. "eating Kak do not too busy same affairs own. so kudet right." add Elvia comment. "emang who the hell?" "Carissa." dzaky staring Elvia with surprised. "not again joking right?" "not lah. if not believe tomorrow to class XI IPA 4 Deh." dzaky smile node on Elvia. "Yes already I return first Yes." said Elvia farewell. dzaky disbelief, girl he loved two years ago to date. school in high school the base of the struggle. somehow feeling dzaky on girl dimpled cheek never changed. he is still loves Carissa. Elvia running slow to parking school. high school the base of the struggle is a quiet for 1 hour ago all students have home. "heh wait." said one from behind. Elvia look back. it turns out brother class called Keyla. "what?" asked Elvia short. "Lo earlier say what the same dzaky?" "not there affairs its the same brother." responsible Elvia. "do not a lot of behavior. my sister class Lo." said Keyla started upset. "I am not a lot of behavior. but emang not nothing to do the same brother." "sorry I many affairs." responsible Elvia and leave Keyla. Keyla staring sharp sister class that. Keyla never let there is one girl else can get dzaky addition themselves. Sun today shining brightly. Carissa confirmed glass his eyes. this is the second day he attended high school the base of the struggle. Carissa already can adapt in this school. reason he quickly adapt because there Elvia his best friend and one male the first love - dzaky. from a distance Carissa see Elvia the middle chat with two men in front of the class XI IPA 4. Carissa see one man he met yesterday. men that bring the stack book. and next to a man who has the body strapping, skin pretty White. heart Carissa vibrate when men well-built looked at him. male smiled at Carissa. Carissa only able to sculpting and feel pulsation jantungannya race above normal. the man came Carissa. now Carissa the middle of dealing with the men who made pulsation heart very fast, which makes Carissa silent thousand language, and also that makes Carissa can only be looked down at this time. "why are looking down?" said the man. "don't miss the same brother?" add men it again. Carissa menganggkat his face and smiled. "I really miss your sister." said Carissa with a smile. dzaky reply to smile Carissa, and give a Brown to Carissa. "I think brother already forget if I like chocolate." said Carissa. "sister not may forget." "thank you." said Carissa with a smile. dzaky nodded slowly and farewell on Carissa. "I mutual love the same Carissa, but because he moved to Surabaya. he dump not want to going out." clear dzaky on Daniel. "lucky Lo can dapet love of a girl setulus Carissa." responsible Daniel with softly. there is a piece of feeling sore that slipped in the liver Daniel. apparently girl he gauging yesterday first love her best friend own. Daniel should be able to hold his feelings on Carissa so as not to grow more and more. Daniel drew his breath length. "jagain Carissa ky." the sentence out of the mouth of Daniel. "of course." when dzaky and Daniel middle talk talk in the parking lot. Keyla over them. "Hey ky, I go together Lo right?" asked Keyla with passion. "eh key, I have the promise of the same person. Lo same Daniel first Yes?" "the promise of the same who?" asked Keyla with jutek. "there was the one." dzaky soon wearing his helmet and motorhome Ninja black leave Keyla and Daniel. "dzaky there promise same who the hell?" "the special. already come quick our home." said Daniel. "who people the special?" "don't know." responsible Daniel curtly.

Several weeks passed. Carissa is really happy to be reunited with Dzaky. The man with the cool eyes never changed a bit. He remained Dzaky who always protects Carissa, Dzaky remains a slalu there for Carissa, still Dzaky who did not let tears Carissa fell a bit.
"Thanks brown kak?" Carissa said. Dzaky nodded slowly and pinched Carissa's cheek fiercely. They both talked coolly in the cafeteria. From a distance Keyla was standing looking at Dzaky and Carissa who day by day came closer. Dzaky changed since the girl with glasses was present. Keyla is rarely invited to the canteen by Dzaky, who usually goes home with Dzaky now never goes home together. Keyla felt Carissa took Dzaky's attention from her.

Big brother waiting on top of the school building. After the bell came home. * Dzaky

Carissa read a memo given by one of the high school students of Pangkal Perjuangan.
"Wah kak Dzaky ngajakin lo meet tuh. Ciyee, "Elvia said teasingly.
Carissa stared at the memo in bewilderment. "But, it was just a break when Kak Dzaky did not say anything about this memo."
"May want to make surprise for you. Yes I already first yes, if need help contact me. "Said Elvia.
Carissa nodded and immediately walked over to her school building. When Carissa got to the top. He did not find the figure he was looking for. Carissa found only a shoulder-length shoulder girl who was turning her back to Carissa.
"Kak Keyla." Carissa called cautiously.
The girl turned to look at Carissa and gave her the most cynical smile.
"Loh kok Keyla is here? Kak Dzaky where? "Carissa asked.
Keyla stepped forward to face Carissa. Keyla grabbed Carissa's smooth hair and removed Carissa's little hair behind her ears.
"No Dzaky here. That sent me the memo. "Keyla said quietly.
"What do you want? Why send a memo using Dzaky's name? "Carissa asked, starting to feel scared.
Keyla grabbed Carissa's hand softly. Carissa tried to release Keyla's hand.
"What would you want?" Carissa asked, shaking.
"I want ... Lo jauhin Dzaky."
Carissa spread her eyes.
"It's supposed to be kakz kakz kak, because I and kak Dzaky love each other," said Carissa.
Keyla tightened her grip on Carissa.
"Aww sick kak, lepasin." Carissa said softly.
"Oh so you do not want farh Dzaky. Ha PD really lo boy. Lo think Dzaky love you? "Keyla snapped as he clawed Carissa's hands with her fingernails. Carissa kept her tears from falling. His hands were sore, blood began to get out of Keyla's scratched wounds.
"It hurts," Carissa said softly.
"It's so far Dzaky," Keyla screamed loudly.
Carissa shook her head. "I love the same kak Dzaky."
"Okay. I will love you to see! Who will be chosen by Dzaky? "Keyla said. Keyla's hand clawed Carissa's hand once more. After that he left Carissa sobbing above the school building. Carissa's "pains" on the sidelines of her tears.

"Ha? So kak Keyla the mayhem lo nyampe rich gini? "Elvia asked in a voice that was quite loud.
Carissa put a finger to her lips. "Sssttt. Do not be loud. "Carissa said.
"Ih mad tuh sister class. Anyway kak Dzaky must know all this. "
Carissa shook her head. "Not. Not to know. I do not want this to be such a big deal. "
"Hey." Dzaky said to Carissa and Elvia.
"Eh sister," Carissa replied.
Elvia just smiled.
"Brother bawain brown ya." Dzaky said while offering chocolate to Carissa.
Carissa received chocolate sodor from Dzaky.
"Why are you Sa?" Dzaky asked worriedly.
"My hand ... To the clasp of the door," Carissa said lying.
"You really do not watch Sa." Dzaky scolded at Carissa.
'Why must lie Carissa' inner Elvia, who heard the conversation Dzaky and Carissa.

The tall girl with her thick eyebrows was getting ready for bed. The clock in Elvia's room was shown at 21:30. When Elvia finished brushing her teeth. He looked at his smartphone that read.
"Hello."
"Hello Vi. This is Rahma's aunt. Carissa is at your house? "Asked a woman across the phone.
"There's no Tan. So what?"
"Carissa is not home yet Vi. Auntie but not active, "said Aunt Rahma in a frantic tone.
"Ha? Not yet home? Carissa Carissa came back later because he was exkul first, "said Elvia who began to panic.
"How is this Vi, aunt worried."
"Quiet Tan, now Vi help aunt looking for Carissa."
"Yes Vi, thanks." Aunt Rahma said and the phone was closed.
Elvia is worried about Carissa. Immediately spread the sms to all numbers of people who know Carissa.

Elvia ran down the corridor high school the base of the struggle with dzaky, Daniel and a pack of security guard who take care of high school the base of the struggle. breeze accompany the four of them are looking for Carissa. "vi, Carissa his there where?" asked dzaky with panic. "in the room exkul journalists rich." "crazy. tuh dark place really. sure Carissa fear. damn, who the hell ngunciin Carissa." dumel dzaky the middle accelerate the movement of his feet. few meters near the room exkul journalists. sound of a girl like to ask for help with softly. "please." said Carissa with the rest of energy. Carissa almost 4 hours trapped in the room journalists. girl bespectacled is very afraid of the dark. with the rest of energies he yelled hope someone help him. "sa, you in?" asked Elvia. "I .. Yes vi." said Carissa frail. not throw a long time. Pak security guard opened the door space journalists. dzaky seen girl he loved middle sedimented weak, Carissa really very fear. swiftly dzaky hugging Carissa, body Carissa that moaned only able to drain the tears in his cheeks. "I was afraid Kak." said Carissa with shaking. "calm down." said dzaky that strengthen his arms and give kiss warm in the forehead Carissa. "how it feels locked up in the room journalists?" asked Keyla the middle bersender in the Wall toilet women. Carissa hearing greeting Keyla reversing the body. "so sister ngurung me?" "if Yes, why?" Carissa staring brother class his upset. However Carissa can still control his emotions. girl bespectacled tried step away from Keyla. "I will tunjukin. who will be selected dzaky." said Keyla with arrogant. Carissa stirring kuah basonya almost cold. already 2 weeks he was looking for news man he loved, men who have eyes shady, men who always keep, man so he loved. "Kok stirred-stir only baso him?" asked Daniel. "not lust. Kak dzaky how hard is encountered Yes? brother never to play with Kak dzaky so these days?" Daniel shook his head. "maybe Kak dzaky busy. bentar again right he stepped down so chairman OSIS." responsible Elvia give understanding. "if Kak dzaky busy. why Lo not busy? Lo also right member OSIS." Elvia silent for some time. "eh I also busy." responsible Elvia gelagapan. Carissa sighed slowly. he walked to order juice. accidentally he collide with Keyla the middle bring baso. "Oh sorry." said Keyla with so sweet. "Yes not Papa Kok." said Carissa try to keep his hot. "Lo not Papa the key?" asked a man. sound men it makes the heart of Carissa vibrate. it turns out that guy is dzaky. Carissa smile see dzaky. but smile not get a response from dzaky. "Yes already, let's to the class." invite dzaky while holding hands Keyla. Keyla staring Carissa with a smile triumph. Carissa who viewed events in front of his eyes. only able to sculpting and feel hand sore. "Kak dzaky." said Carissa softly. thousand asked appear in the minds of Carissa. what's with all this. "you okay sa?" asked Elvia. "Kak dzaky why be rich so?" said Carissa with confused. "relax dzaky Aja sa." comments Daniel. Carissa staring Daniel with a sharp. "what purpose brother? relax for whom?'s Kak Keyla?" asked Carissa with shaking. Elvia and Daniel can only be silent. "why the hell you?" said Carissa with emotion. he ran left Daniel and Elvia. he really don't understand why attitude everyone be weird. this is not fair to Carissa. very unfair. Carissa invited Daniel and Elvia to the hospital. Daniel and Elvia said, he would know the answer why dzaky changing attitudes in the hospital. step Carissa stop when he found dzaky sitting and menundukan his head. "Kak?" Sapa Carissa slowly. dzaky smile on girl he loved. "sister why here?" asked Carissa confused. Carissa look into the room. there's a girl who middle lying weak in bed. and hose infusion stick in his hand. Carissa squinted. try guess girl lying weak. "Kak Keyla." mouth Carissa say. "Yes it emang Keyla." said dzaky hoarse. Carissa staring dzaky asking an explanation. "actually brother know, that hurt the hands of you, which ngurung you in the room jurnaslis it Keyla. when you are confined, brother really anger on Keyla. brother feel he is outrageous." "ago?" "sister negur him. the time Keyla even said. if brother continue deket same you. he will hurt himself." clear dzaky slowly. "sister think he's just threatening. but the brother incorrectly he really injuring himself. he wring own hands." Carissa silent hear greeting dzaky. "sorry, brother disappear a few weeks ago. brother think we can not to close again." clear dzaky with softly. "sister still love me?" asked Carissa with plain. "of course, in the heart of brother there is only you." responsible dzaky very sure. Carissa smile sad, "if brother love my sister will fight for me. not give up like this." "what's brother was thinking about feeling I? what sister no see how the struggle me to stay can relate to sister?" sound Carissa began to vibrate. dzaky the sitting, only able to down. he really dilemma. he was confused have to do what. "it's all the best, forgive brother sa." said dzaky with weak. Carissa staring dzaky with disbelief. why dzaky choose decision like this. "if this is the sister select, I received. I will remain love the brother of the back, though someday brothers belonging to the other women." said Carissa vibrate. women bespectacled is still waiting for response men in front of him. However dzaky still down not respond. finally Carissa reverse the body. and ran leave dzaky with tear down heavy in his cheeks. dzaky staring back Carissa started lost swallowed the hallways the hospital. "forgive brother sa, brother is guy Coward, but this can brother do, so as not occur anything to you." said dzaky softly with a drop of tear down quietly in his cheeks.

Carissa ran as fast as she could, she did not care about the people who watched her. What he knows, now his heart is broken. He had to let go of the person he loved so much. Carissa ran out of the hospital, without realizing it from the sky down very swiftly. The mood of rain accompanied her with the thousand sadness that Carissa felt. How foolish he fought for men, who ultimately did not fight for him. Carissa promised herself that the tears that descended on her cheeks right now, were the last tears for Dzaky. Cariss walked slowly, hugging herself. In the rain accompanied by the rain, this woman with glasses gathered all the strength in her heart: ')