Love Me Hard

At the very core of our beings, lies an innate desire to be loved, to be understood. See, we know we are sometimes terrible people, we forget important days, we can be overly emotional, we say the wrong things at the wrong times, the right things at the wrong times, we buy the wrong gifts, miss the most obvious signs, and sometime in our lives we have hurt you knowingly or unknowingly, repeatedly. We know these things.

And we're certain that you know them too.

But still, we just want to be loved, to be held, to be cuddled, to be told that every single time we got it right did not go unnoticed. That our struggle is being taken note of. That the fight we fight everyday to be better, to do better, to be better human beings, for ourselves first and then for you, is not unacknowledged.

We have stayed up at night, thinking up ways to right our wrongs, to put back together the things our unsteady fingers have broken. Believe it or not, we have done these things. We sometimes still do them.

It is unfair that you choose to fixate on the wrongs we've done, can you not see how hard it is for us? To continually look into your eyes and watch the fire that formerly burned so brightly, die into a barely noticeable glow?

It is terrible, it is like dying a million deaths over.

We just want you to love us. Kiss our scars and help us heal, to assure us that it’s not just us against the world, help put our broken pieces back together, because has it ever occurred to you that we just might be hurting? And that perhaps it is why we hurt you in the first place?

Love us hard, it is how we originally intended to love you. We just did not get it right on first try.

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Toyin