That is just such a right post. Such a great post. You know, I have experienced that for way too many times, and as long as I try to play with it- it just burns. Exactly, as You said, LIKE HELL. It burns, it crashes Your soul, heart- absolutely every single thing. But when You are burnt that badly, all You have to do is to talk it out, spread it- it will help You to grow- it always does. This is why I started telling my personal story. If You are interested, You can take a look.
https://steemit.com/steemit/@sgunte/from-stranger-to-ex-real-story-of-how-i-got-american-boyfriend-working-at-the-store-without-days-off