Well basically my "rebellion" is not following the social script of graduate->find job->get married->sink in debt->make kids->work your a** off to pay back debt->pretend I'm happy everytime someone comes to visit->get old->regret wasting up youth years->die as a grumpy ol' guy who forgot to dream. I am focusing on my dreams now instead of leaving them for later. Will it work? Don't know. Time will tell. Some personal events did influence me to see things differently.. too many loved ones died over the years so maybe I am kinda messed up and don't want to adhere to the social norm.