Life is really difficult and not easy. It has many exams and perhaps the most difficult is the choice between two things or more.
I lived a phase in my life in which I took the test of choosing a life partner.
I was between two options, the first choice is my love and I love and love and all I wish, and the second is that I chose a woman I knew only from afar.Know you are wondering what optional you expect ?! .
Sagipek. I have chosen my second and left the first important in my life, because at that time I had many conditions and mental control over my heart.After my second choice, I am now married and have two children, and I live a happy and beautiful life, but sometimes that feeling of nostalgia and sorrow comes.
Sometimes I wish I could turn back time and choose my love for a life that may be better.

But I know that the train I missed and can not return, and lost everything behind me, now I can not lose my family.
I know you feel and understand me.
I think your choice is stability. It's very difficult, but if you were your place to choose my family first of all.
Good luck my dear brother @gmichelbkk
I wish you a happy life