I'm Too Hopeful Or Is this the so-called Emptiness of the Heart?

My name, Vivi born Depok Indonesia, September 5, 1990. I can say I'm an adult, to foster relationships like most women in her age. But, for now I'm still alone.

I do not know, what kind of relationship I've been going through with a man. Because I never know how to get him to stay with me. My boyfriend is a soldier, he's the kind of person who is indifferent, not asking or talking much. It's the same with myself who does not demand too much things that go to a more serious level. My heart is empty with no direction. All was heartbreaking.

Oh God, what kind of life am I? If he reads and knows my story, I want to ask, "Do you seriously with me like this oh my man?" I doubt all about you. I'm uncertain about the clarity of our relationship, but I persist in the emptiness that keeps me empty.

He seemed indifferent,

too silent if i ask,

too ignorant if I'm joking,

too rigid if I invite face to face.

Is this like love ??? If he knew how lonely I was during this life, pimples, how sad life I live. Just once, give me the rest of your life for me. Happy me. Pleased me. Make me smile "promise".

Honey, I'm hollow without explanation, I hesitate without recognition.

You like life not to love me and like this feeling of emptiness, I want to let everything pass without explanation, "I'm tired right now". Let us go through each other's life without your feelings that never existed. Because I realize, women like me do not deserve to get that love so great. Let me alone in this void of heart. And as I write this, I will end what I have expected about you and me.

"Done".

Thank You.