THE MOMENT WHEN: How do you deal with it?

Today, we are so much more connected to each another than any other time in history. Especially with social media and social media chat apps. Yet, there are times life throws a huge curve ball right at your face.

I text a friend, like I always do, text and leave it till they reply. When there's no reply, I assume they are busy with work and life, just like I am.

"Maybe they will reply later, when they are free or when they see my text"

Same thing I say to myself every time they take longer then usual to reply. It doesn't add weight to my thoughts, sent a text and go back doing <real life> stuffs.

Days, weeks, and a month passed, and then one day I realized that text is still sitting there, still no reply.

"Hmm, they missed my text or lost their phone"

Did I said something horrible to them without realizing it? I know for sure I didn't , we were having so much fun the last time you chat. it's just <silly me> over-thinking.

So I login to her main social media. I know I will get her there, she login and post daily. Click on our last message, started typing and <send>.

My eyes caught a tiny thing in corner of the previous message.

"last active. 36 days ago".

This is not possible, she never fail to update her status and post daily.
I click on her profile picture to go to her page.
The page loaded and all I saw were...

"R.I.P"
"We'll miss you"

It took a few seconds to hit me, and it hit me really hard.

The shock, the horror, my brain froze, I froze. I broke down, shattered to a million pieces.

I thought you didn't reply because I said something hurtful.
I thought you were mad at me.
I thought you missed my text.
I thought you lost your phone, again.
I thought you were too busy with work.

I though, I thought, I thought... a million thoughts went through my head that moment, but my head was blank, I couldn't think of anything, I couldn't pull my eyes away from those three words all over the screen, <R.I.P.>.

Save me a spot beside you.
Someday when I get there.
I want to be right next to you.
Rest in Peace my dear friend.

How do you deal with these things and go through it?
Me no likey this at all, not one bit.