I BROOKE MYSELF AND KILL IT INSIDE

"when you found what you really want and you want that for so long,
and it was there right in front of you
but you realized you're not fit enough to hold it now"

I don't know where I'm really right now, confused, what to feel and what to say. I'm just excited at first when I knew that finally found a person who made my day's perfect in the last few weeks as I wonder and amazed at the same time how's that person got my attention and my heart could beat that hard and easily fall and want that person so bad haha. that person become so special to me and I am so nervous about it, afraid as I realized that what I want is not even existed nor even really, why I am saying that because I did a little bit kind of research about on what that person's interest and wants too and I'm quite different from all of it, yes I am a person who've always look to the positive side of life, always motivated to get what I want but on the other side I also know how to analyse the time and situation if it was a perfect time to me to do any action and spent my energy, time and effort to it or maybe also because I just had that fear to get hurt again too, I do really want to fight off of what I feel for that person but didn't notice any signs, for now, to win the fight haha and maybe if that person also want me too? so I better let this feeling GO... and what I need to do for now is I'll will work hard and be more focus on myself getting all my dreams and goals, develop, enhance and improve myself so well, and I'll just trust to the universe if it's that person and me are meant to each other time will come that we will be both of us realized that we are so perfect to each other... my word for myself is "never give up, great things take time"

thank you for reading...
until next time ...

Arcy...

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