I can't relate so won't try to! But I will say my grandpa was supposed to have another boy (my unvle) and he passed away!

I know it was horrible for him but he had 2 others my mom and uncles I love them to death.

Guess the point is that you can always keep trying and just from a perspective of someone who has been with his lover for 16 years.

I know you're the dad and you're hurting but focus on HER & being strong for HER as she is the one who is bolstering a certain "feeling" inside

So I think get focused more on HER , leaving you less time for posts like this and I hope/pray that y'all can do it again soon man!