Self-Love Letter (Part 2)

I’m sorry for turning you into a wreck. I’m sorry for coating your heart with so much sadness and cruelty that you almost couldn’t recognize a fraction of what you’ve become. I'm sorry for shredding you to pieces when you deserved to be cherished. For the countless times I deprived you of things you needed because I thought you could survive without it and for the times I made you hide for who you are because I believed that the world didn’t want to see you. I’m sorry that I made you felt insignificant for years and pretended that you weren’t there when you were there all along, screaming at me to take care of you because you’re fragile. I am so sorry for the amount of times I wished that you’d change but you weren’t meant to be molded into something else. I am sorry for all the words I etched deep into your skin that are scarred there forever. I, I wanted to apologize for the time I spent defying you.

You’ll realize that it wasn’t the lack of someone else’s love that really hurts. It was the lack of your love that makes it painful. Please remember that feelings are temporary. What you’re feeling now will not be what you’re feeling always. There's nothing permanent in this world except change. Stop wallowing in despair and stop torturing yourself. Pain will pass and you'll eventually overcome it. It’s time to just stop surviving and start really living because life is too short instead of drowning yourself in sorrow. Stop worrying about things that are trivial and that will pass.

You must learn to completely love yourself before you even try to love another. Always remember that putting yourself and loving yourself first is the most important. Make sure that above all things, you are happy, and if you ever find that you are not, do whatever you can to find happiness again. Love like you never seen pain before and if you do not find the strength to do so, just make sure you find enough love for yourself. Don’t get upset with others if they do not have the same heart as you do. Love yourself and don’t wait for someone else to love you.

Let go of the things and people that are not meant for you. Permit all the living truth to unbind you. I want you to remember who you are, despite the bad things that are happening to you because those bad things aren’t you. They are just things that happen to you. You need to accept that who you are and the things that happen to you, are not one and the same thing. Just because you think it’s too painful doesn’t mean life is unfair. Some people got it worst. You are worth so much more than the ways you’ve been treated. So breathe, be patient, and trust the course of your life.

Lastly, let go of all the expectations you have created in your head. Accept life for what it is. You have to stop saying sorry and turn over a new leaf.The journey will be ugly and it most certainly will not be easy. One day, you will look back and you're going to be proud of yourself for what you have done. I do not know yet where will you end up but I know for sure that it’s going to be great, that it's going to be worth it. Don’t lose hope because things will get better. Maybe not now, but someday it will.