lonely :(

no idea what to write , my english is not that good and won't help me a lot to write what exactly i feel or what happen with me.
I'm a good person who do always good things and try to help everyone in real life and even online or in games, but what i get back is only shit a shit over shit over shit. NO i'm not helping people just for fan or for nothing, YES i'm expecting something back, i WANT something back but not from people, i want it back from "GOD" or what ever you call him... everymorning i say it will be better and it will get better soon, i will find a fucking someone who will love me, and be my world but nothing happen just shit and ignor and you go crying to your bed to sleep and hope not to weak up again ... i know love dont come from the sky overnight but not a girl/boy giving you even the chance to show her/him your true self, they look just how you look like/or what you say in 10 min and then the fucking brain of them start to work and descide to throw you like shit in the garbage cause you are not the dream man/woman, they are always looking for that dream man/woman, who will come play with them, fuck them, lie to them and then throw them destroied behind the street "great im angry now" angry is much better that sadnees and lonely. anyway what i want back from god is that girl, but maybe god is busy now... you know the millions of people in syria, iraq and africa need help more than me.