I can actually relate with your paternal relationship, as my dad and I aren't the best buddies either and all that, but despite everything I still love him. I can just imagine the pain you're going through at this tough time.
I don't know how I can be of greater help, but I hope you'll get through everything. hugs
I appreciate this, Marian. I thought going through this will be fine once I accepted my father's fate, but the process itself gives me so much emotional baggage. To add to that is where to find the finances. Hayyyyyyyy. sends back the virtual hug