Beautiful story and even more beautiful outcome. I am happy you will be able to recover soon and that you didn't give up.
I agree with everything you said. I had multiple difficulties in my life. Physical and psychological. A couple where I was close to losing my life in a car accident and another was actually losing someone else (my fiancée) in a car accident which was so hard that I wished I lost my life instead.
I personally found the psychological one (losing someone I loved) was much harder to recover from than the physical ones. Maybe because I miraculously got out of both car accidents almost unscathed.
I kept blaming myself for the death of my fiancée even though I was in a different continent when he had the car accident. I felt that he deserved the second chances I was given more than I did. He was such a good person, loved by everyone around him. I was the opposite, not loved by anyone but him. I always wondered why and how he was able to love me, when no one else did.
Anyway, I am trying to make use of the second chance I was generously given by the universe. Trying to find what is it that I am supposed to do in life before I leave it. Still not sure, but I am working on it.
Thanks again for sharing your story with us :)